New - HELP! Tried the 180/Last Resort & Failed

[AloneAt35]

Thanks so much for letting me know that my perceptions of his cruelty are correct - his behavior is off-the-charts insensitive. For 19 1/2 years he was close to perfect...but his personality has changed dramatically and so quickly that one friend only half-jokingly suggested it as if he has a brain tumor or a multiple personality.

Today I saw my family doctor for a referral to a therapist and medication for myself. My mother is with me as often as she can be for support and to keep me safe. Although it has been several weeks, I still feel as if I am in a nightmare that I will eventually wake up from, but every morning the hurting just starts over again.

I need to be strong. The DB techniques are the only thing I can hang on to right now. He is coming over on Sunday (maybe) to pick up some papers. I plan to look busy and not interact. That is the closest I can manage to the 180/LRT. He is dismantling our entire life as quickly as he can. It is agonizing. I always thought this man was my soul mate.