Won't stand for a broken family

[Timetotry]

Journaling:

D2 wants to start IC finally. Too much pressure, she doesn't like seeing him be fake at dinner last night and knows that he has been drinking and driving since Sunday, and I don't mean just a few beers. Every nite he was going out whether it was for work or with friends and he told her about it. Its killing her and D1 when we had such a tight family how he can be ok gone from all of us.

As I review my personal daily event log I keep on my computer I noticed another potential positive though. Every day this week he has found a way to contact me through texts and be here at the house physically even for five minutes. Made up some crazy excuses for two out of the four days and we had no negativity. A month ago I wasn't even getting nearly that amount of contact let alone positive conversations. Came over to cut the grass and hang out for 10 minutes after taking a shower in our room. Said he was meeting his step brother for dinner. Said he won't drink tonight. Called me a few hours later as he was driving home and yes, he drank. really had nothing important to say and it was just like our marriage talks upto a few months ago.

I know I have to be patient and maybe, just maybe someday I will be a success story. Believing in the actions over the words. I just hope he doesn't drink his reality away and get in an accident before then.

H:41
W:44
D1:18
D2:16
S:12
D3:7
T:20
M:18
Bomb:1/5/11
Sep:2/18/11
No D filed yet; just threats

“It is what YOU make it”!