Help..I dont want a divorce

[StaciG]

today our mortgage was due and wonder since we havent spoken what I should do about it. Last time he gave me 1/2 and I paid the other 1/2. Got home yesterday and checked the mail. I had a letter from him. I was nervous and excited, shaking bad. Not knowing what was in the envelope. Got inside and opened it up and there was a Dr's bill from services that were for me that he got in the mail at his new address and a check for 1/2 the mortgage. Was happy but a little sad that there was no note or anything, guess I was expected more from him. I thought I will send him a nice txt letting him know that I recieved his check. Here is how the conversation went thru txt messages, please note I broke alot of rules..but sometime your anger gets the best of you.
m-got the check for 1/2 the mortgage today and the dr's bill. Thank you.
h-k, was wondering if got it. would it be fine if i get the grill soon?
m-when ur ready to sit and talk to me then we can discuss it.
h-talk about what?
m-um everything..why u left me with no explanation. why it was ur 1st reaction to pack and leave..my feelings were just hurt. wld have gotten over it.
h-its self explanatory. i tried and u pushed away. nothing left to talk about. nothing left of us.
m-i didnt push away, u pushed me away and since i wasnt over it in 5 seconds after you applogized u leave?? what a man, is all i have to say. 1st sign of trouble & you bolt.
h-same reasons as before. you not happy and I not happy. Cant live with grudges and bickering, nothin in common. Same story over and over. your entitled to ur opinions. I can respect that. I am not pointing fingers at all. We both have issues as you told me. You weren't happy and I was starting to force myself to act happy.
m- Really? Yeah, u tried so hard..a whole 4 days and leaves over a band-aid.
h-You are always right. I am not going to argue.
m- Sorry to be the one to point this out, but it takes longer than 4 days to figure out if your happy. Unless you came in with that mindset to begin with.
h- You are right. You did say you were not happy and were going crazy.
m-At that moment cause we were arguing over a freakin band-aid and u talking about leaving again...that would make anyone crazy.
h-I'm not arguing. You are right. I dont have anything else to say to you. Im sorry we turned out so different.
m-come get the grill and make it your last trip..do it the cowardly way, when im not home cause thats what you do best.
h-ok
m-just fyi, our contractor is watching our house while im at work, hes not to happy with you, since he left right after building and moving into new home. Oh and see ya at your bodybuilding show next weekend!
h-what you mean he is watching the house and not happy?

At this point i didnt respond back to his txt. I jumped into the shower and got out and in 20 min time i had 16 missed phone calls from his sister and mom. Then when i wouldnt answer them, his sister started to txt me. I think i really got in his head with telling him I would see him at his bodybuilding show. That just proves to me that it is the most important thing!! its not me! He sister txt'd me that she would just come to my work and chat since i wouldnt answer her phone calls or txt. How trashy is that coming to my work??? Her next txt was, why are you so afraid to talk to me? Really her brother is 34 yrs old and a grown man..he should be able to handle his own business with out sister and mommy talking for him. They dont want me to mess up his show, he has worked so hard since Jan 1 preping for this show. Wish he would have spent as much time working on our marriage as he did his bodybuilding.
Sorry for the long post, but had to get out my evening. It was a long night!