W just came to our house and picked up both the girls for a couple of hours bf she goes to work. We spoke about the girls for a few minutes and she left. O acted as if as much as I could.

Bf W left she received a phonecall but did not answer it. I kept thinking it was OM calling, but I would think that if her phone rang 100 times. I need to vet over it, but this whole thing just hurts so much.

We went out to dinner last night with my parents, the in laws and the kids. SD said several times the only person we were missing was mom.

Anyway, going to go for a short run and relax bf I go to work tonight.

Feeling bad today

BITS

M:34 W:28
SD:9
D:6 (pr)
M:3 T:6
Separated 1/16/11
ILYBNILWY 10/25/10
PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10

I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...