One thing that strikes me about your email is that I want to say this - it's time for you to get *your* needs met. You've taken care of a lot of people. That can be draining. Now you'll be taking care of a baby. Make sure that you regularly get to take care of *you* -
My only advice at this point is find your happy place - go there often in your mind - and hang on for the ride! Having a baby is wonderful ... and wild! I'm glad H sounds a little more prepared to receive all the joy that is about to enter your world.