Totally empty and angry today. All I can think of is how she railed against marriage being economically beneficial and that "money doesn't matter; I'm not happy" and now looks to take half, including half my future pension. I've separated accounts and am teasing apart bills and debts; no contact from W, though I can track her progress through the gas bills on our joint account.
I feel very, very betrayed, particularly since I know this was caused by her realizing that things were going well and having a backlash in combination with an opportune trip. I feel certain she is going to find an OM to sleep with based on things she has said.
So close, so close. Things were really going well.
