bolt tightening

[Bolt]

I don't know. I guess because I feel both proud of her and happy for her. It bothers me because I want to be there to share the good news.

It also bothers me - on a weird level - that it makes her happy. I know that contradicts what I just said but since it does make her happy, it makes me sad...

Does that make any sense at all?

Maybe a part of me wants to see her in as much pain as I am...I don't know...