Have been feeling really low since the easter weekend. Even the yoga didn't help. I did go to MC on Tuesday though, which went better than I expected. It touched on why I became resentful toward my W. It stems back to our first break-up 15yrs ago when I agreed not to live away from home during the week ( I work in construction and most of the contracts I did were in London & beyond ). While this was ok on some jobs, others required me driving up to 5hrs a day + 11hr shifts. Even though the commute was my suggestion, I began to resent having to do it and I began to feel that MY needs were not being met.
I will be going home again on Sunday to see my BF & his GF who will be in the area at a festival. I will be taking S17 & D14 along with me. Probably not W though. Doubtless she will have other arrangements.
I would really like to sit down & talk to her though, maybe in the evening, but i'm unsure if I should tell her how I really am feeling, ie I have not 'moved on' as she thinks, but have merely accepted that I can't make her change her mind about 'us'.
This I'm sure goes against everything I should be doing as regards db'ing, but now that the 'bomb' has dropped our communication is almost nil. She no longer phones, emails, texts or messages me & I feel that she is just moving on & forgetting me altogether.
Suggestions, 4x2's, advice please
FF999
Me 48 W 49 D19, S17, D14 Together 25yr, Married 22yr Me checked-out July 10, back Sept 10 W checked out Nov 10 Separated Dec 10 ILYBNILWY 2nd Apr 11 We're finished + D bomb 17th Apr 11
