The big punch

[Redo]

25yearsmlc : I sincerely thank you for taking time on my sitch. I could not have asked for a better help.

All i can say in summary is that I have realized how dysfunctional i have been all these years and never took it upon me to introspect myself. And finally when i did do that in 2009, i failed to find good people to get help.

In a way, i think what happened now is a good thing for it finally has shown me what i am. And i dont like that person. I have a lot i need to change about myself. But as you correctly pointed out, i constantly fall back into the pit of fears and use them as excuses for my malady. I think i'll use this time alone i have not as a crying time, but as time to work on myself. I know that a week from now i might be falling into that pit, but all i can do now is keep climbing backup.

I really hope you stick around because i believe all of us on this forum can benefit from your wisdom. Thank you so much.