"Me thinks thou doth protest too much"...even here. When you get all frustrated, try to remember she had reasons for leaving that you conceded they were valid. You say you worked on you. Got your mom out of the home...
So it will take MORE time for your w to believe your changes are real and not just tactics to get her back. (Are they real?) If this is really the new you, what's the hard part about this? Not letting you heal? Then tell her that.
OR better yet, don't talk. Just BE, as in BE upbeat, And GAL which means ending the conversations once you realize she's not in an emergency room, ( 3-5 min of pleasant conversation is enough) b/c you're so busy with your uber fun exciting life, and 180's. You get off the phone in a pleasant happy way as if a good friend called but you were on your way out the door to a concert you'll be late for...nothing rude or curt. Just busy!!
And focus on parenting your d, who has now lost a mother for the 2nd time?? Ouch. How is SHE doing?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016