We had a big fight last night. He told me that he thought I loved feeling hurt, playing the victim. Not a good thing to say to me. He said that I build a wall between us when I act that way. I build the wall? I think an A is a pretty big wall. you want to talk about walls? I am so devastated....still. It never seems to go away, she is always just a step away in something we do, somewhere we go, people we see. Yeah, I get angry, for sure. I've given this man many chances in our R. Am I just being stupid for staying? Will I regret it again? That is where I am today.
She is close because you keep bringing the past into the present. She is close, because you keep dragging them into everything.
Me and my husband went to McDonald's today, and this is the same one they went too two years ago! He didn't order anything, I bet he ordered a Big Mac when he was with her.
You...you...are sabotaging yourself.
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I think an A is a pretty big wall. you want to talk about walls?
No, not really. Rather hear about what you doing in taking them down, instead of maintianing.
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He told me that he thought I loved feeling hurt, playing the victim.
I don't know that you love it, but unless you learn how to forgive and move on, without comparing every thing to the past? You will be in this state of hurt and victimhood.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
