The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

OMG....don't have too long but I saw OW while on the way to my class tonight. I walked by...saw her (she doesn't know me) and then I walked closer because she was on a cell phone call...(of course I think she is talking with MY husband) but then didn't know how to be inconspicuous...so walked on to class and sat outside watching. Just watching. I called H. He answered after a few rings just as she hung up and was walking back into work. I didn't really know what to say to H other than "Oh...have a few minutes before class starts" I had actually talked to him about 20 min prior but had to call. I KNOW I AM NUTS!

In person, she is much prettier than her pictures I've seen on internet/fb. She has shoulder length blond hair (I'm a brunette). I really just wanted to SLAP her right then and there. My heart was beating so fast.....but I went to class.

I couldn't hear the conversation, but her face didn't look happy and her tone didn't sound breezy.

UGH! Plus we ML this a.m. (I was not the initiator).

Thanks for listening. H is planning a trip to see parts of the Amgen race around CA next month. Plus he has talked about seeing a car race up in Sonoma in late August (he did this trip two years ago "alone"). I think he is laying groundwork for another "alone weekend". He has done 3 of these in our 22 years of M.

Part of Amgen is his bday weekend so he asked "so what do you want to do?" I said...."it's your choice and your bday weekend". So...not sure if he is including me or not at this point.

I honestly don't care when he goes on backpacking/biking/camping/motorcyle trips with his guy friends. At least I feel comfortable that I know who he is with. It is the ALONE trips that tear me up.

Thanks for listening........

UGH!!!