Punkin, I'm sorry for this difficult time. It's interesting this question about happiness. I wonder it myself. The upcoming court date is surely causing you more distress - I agree with Brooklyn - take care of yourself - extreme self-care for awhile. IB
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time