Punkin and Antonia, I understand how you feel and those feelings will pass in time. My xh married his "HO" just about 2 years after the div divorce and they are still together. The relationship is an odd one at best, but I only wish him happiness now, because he had it all at one time and now it's a struggle for him to get what he wants and be happy. I'll never understand it, but they have destroy everything in order to create their new selves.
On another note, I'm keeping you and others in the path of those storms in my thoughts and prayers. I heard that we are suppose to get some of that weather on Thursday.
Please be safe and and Punkin...good luck with your meeting.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.