Another New Day 3

[islander]

Well I backslid big time tonight. Oh well. I couldn't help myself. I called W about the kids and what was going on this weekend. Then we started talking, and I asked her at one point if she had been thinking about things at all. She said yes, that she was very stressed, and it (our m/r) always crosses her mind.

Then the convo went deeper. She said she didn't know if she wanted to go to MC, but had mayybe an IC and see what happens. Then it got deeper. I know everybody knows how it went from my end, so I does not need repeating.

We were both crying. It was a 20 min talk. She said to call her back tonight if I wanted to. I said I wouldn't, and that I always want to call her but don't. She said she would call me sometime. Whatever.

Basically, she said she couldn't make a decision right now. She does kot know what she wants, or what she is able to "handle". She says she knows we did not have any problems in our M where a D would be justified, and she always talks good about me. And I reply, then why walk away without trying????

I asked her why it was right to walk away and wrong to try. She did not have an answer, as I already knew. Anyway, I will suffer the consequences of my actions.