Hi- I got behind on your posts and have been letting them sort of simmer. I think you're right about a lot of things, doing a lot of good things, and I have been right there with you on that flip between was/lbs. It means your stuff is working, she's questioning her choices, pursuing you a little, and starting to be a better wife/mother! When H started doing this, I felt extremely proud and you should too.
Faith is, at one and the same time, absolutely necessary and altogether impossible. --Stanislaw Lem