Rollercoaster of love

[LearningPatience]

That's one thing she hasn't done is lie to me, for better or worse. When things started going south last year, I saw her text messages, she told me she was going over to his house, told me she kissed him, told me after the fact that she slept with him the night I tried to kill myself, etc. Now, has she told me everything, most likely not.

Not proud of it, but the snooping I had done leads me to believe the PA was a one time thing. Could it have been more than that, sure. Could it be going on now? Sure. I do think that she's on the tail end of her R with OM but hangs on due to loneliness. In the end, it doesn't really matter why she hangs on though. In the end, she loses a R with one or both of us.

I do appreciate the advice and see where you are coming from. Honestly, it's the EA that hurts more than the PA and it's all painful.