Thank you all for your kind words, and assistance. My H gave me dissolution papers last night already signed. It is done. He wants out that badly. I have to let him go. Wasn't proud of the way I handled things but did maintiain some dignity as well. We are complete strangers. How does something so beautiful turn so ugly so quickly?
I don't know when/if I will be back but wish you all DB'ers the best and have hopes your sitch doesn't end up like mine.
Wow Lily...that was quick. Stay strong @ letting him go. Don't initiate contact, etc...see what he does. Don't ask questions or talk about feelings. Make interactions as light and pleasant as you can. Good luck, see where it takes you, do that bucket list/reconnect with friends, etc.
Faith is, at one and the same time, absolutely necessary and altogether impossible. --Stanislaw Lem