Just had to post bc my mind is swimming and am having a hard time breathing.
I have a hearing today and can't stop thinking about how I was played for all of this. I can't stop thinking about how I was lied to for months. How I was played a fool. How she acted as if things were going to work. Playing that she wanted to touch me. Wanted to try and make things work. Wanted to be a family.
It hurts so much not to scream out in pain. I want to tell my kids how awful their mother is for doing this to us. I want to explain that it was SHE the destroyed us. HER that doesn't care about the family. HER selfishness that moved us all the way across the country.
But I can't. I'm not like that. I'm too good to stoop to her level. I will never be a part of the dregs of society that she is now associated with.
Please tell me, how to cope with this? I feel betrayed. I feel used. I feel worthless. I do never want to be a part of this person's life ever again. I do know that for certain. Now it's just dealing with the pain.
How have you all dealt with it?
I can't make it stop hurting for you Bolt, but I can tell you I felt exactly the same way. If you want to busy yourself, read my threads. My stbxH continued a sexual relationship with me, said things like "I don't know how this is going to end up", etc ...
As cliche as it sounds, it does get better. YOU really do have the power to detach yourself and live your life. It takes work, and changing the focus from her to YOU.
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
