I look at the old posts and I see how polished they are, how well put together. I don't even feel like I'm capable of that at this point. I guess I have to remember I'm in week 2 right now and last time I started posting at week 7. Emotionally I haven't caught up yet.
I definitely will try to put those actions back into place - all those things I learned how to do and fixed. I'll have to show him through any interaction those good behaviours again. I just got so caught up in life and my own depression (for at least 3 years) that I forgot to do all of this. And he forgot all of his stuff too. However for now, I think going dark is the best thing that can happen.
The only concern I have at this point is that he's moving so much faster this time. Illinois was 6 months mandatory period of separation before divorce. Washington does it in 90 days. Like I said he already started splitting our things in the house last weekend. I'm not sure I have time.
