I dont know if I want him back. I dont know if I want to divorce bust. I only know that I want to go home to clear my head. My contract expires May 6th. I am not going to sign it. My h has asked me why I would leave him here alone. He always said we only had each other here and I am so angry that he left me alone here and when I needed him the most to step up and be a man. His family is just as hurt and angry with him as I am. He will not talk to them. I only wanted to come home and grieve. I told him this on the phone. I also said at one point after she died, I just wanted to go home. Guess, he felt like this was his excuse to run. So, yes its hard but no contact this time. Its time that he understands I have boundaries. Kee
