Another New Day 3

[islander]

Well, I am doing ok, but I have to fight to keep my mind in the right place. I was going to tm W tonight to make sure she paid the rest of our bills for this month. Then I thought, why should I do this?? She has only been late once on one bill, and there are still 5 days left in the month. I can atleast wait till the last day.

Truth is, I did want to contact my W. About anything. I miss her. So I stopped myself.

Then I am wondering about her wondering about me all of the time. Should I ask her one of those times if she wants to come over. Am I missing an opportunity here. Does she want me to continue the convo with her. Every time she tells me she is wondering what I am doing, I don't respond after that. Should I ask her what she is doing, thinking, etc.

The one time I did ask her last week, she told me she asked bc she was thinking about coming over but changed her mind. She has asked me what I was doing and replied just wondering atleast two times since then.