Won't stand for a broken family

[Timetotry]

Journaling:
I thought the weekend was very good, serious progress but my IC doesn't feel the same. She feels he needs to show complete remorse before he can return.
All of us went out to dinner and had a good time, no arguing no R talk, just pleasant conversation. He said how he tried sushi on his work trip last week and wants to take me to try it sometime (I didn't react but I thought WOW forward thinking!). He wanted me to listen to a song on his phone that he says is his 'new song' that is called "Everything" by Lifehouse; he heard it last week after watching a Smallville rerun. While we were together, he has done that over time, say songs remind him of me. I am not sure if this one does, listened on You Tube several times but I think so! Came back, dyed eggs with kids, sat together and watched tv and ML twice! He even considered sleeping in our bed but said he doesn't want to confuse the kids and I agreed (but secertly wanted him too).
Sunday morning was great as well. He made breakfast, we enjoyed family time and he did some yardwork until we had to leave around 1. An hour later he text saying how hard it was to leave the house. I validated and said I can't imagine leaving the kids. He replied saying, "no, the whole house" which means me! My SMIL called to say how Friday went and how he told his SB that he is really confused. Confused is a step in the right direction, no longer definite divorce thinking. Began texting at 6 asking when we will be home and wants to come over. Later wanted us to come over the to family party he was at and we did. Stayed till 9 until we left.
Good weekend and goals were met. Feels good.
Just called a bit ago and created another excuse to stop by tonight. Hoping he will start being honest and just say he misses me.
And the roller coaster continues....


H:41
W:44
D1:18
D2:16
S:12
D3:7
T:20
M:18
Bomb:1/5/11
Sep:2/18/11
No D filed yet; just threats

“It is what YOU make it”!