From small beginnings come great things

[MichelleLT]

Oh jeez. Where do I start?

I am glad you decided no more R talk. It's getting you nowhere right now.

Stop pushing. Stop pursuing. Your actions are your words are not matching up. You are saying you are moving on, that there is no D to bust anymore, but your frustration and anger is still there.

And instead of processing it yourself, it looks like you are using the excuse of no longer having to DB her to get a few shots in at her.

There is as much as roller coaster when you get the D as there is when they first drop the bomb. In some ways it's worse.

Give yourself time. Be patient with yourself. And understand that you still have a lot of grieving to do.