Used, abused, discarded, kicked to the curb, crapped on, dumped.
They all apply. IF that is what you allow yourself to feel like. I know those feelings. I know that anger. I could easily take my nails and claw them down his face; kick, bite, scream, cuss. I all for not surpressing the emotions.
You know what? It's all normal. We are human and we will feel this way for awhile. Longer if we allow them to have a hold over us. I worked the last twenty years so he could ride off into the sunset of retirement with HER??? Yes, I know those feelings.
Scream, kick, tear a pillow to ribbons, mangle his favorite chair; LET IT ALL OUT - and then let it go. I'm 9 days from D, so I'm counting on you to be there when I go through this same thing. I fully expect to. But you know what? It's our secret. He'll never know.
As far as the world is concerned, especially his world: We are perfectly happy with how things turned out. ((HUGS))
