Your right Starsky, I do freely admit to having my head in the sand. I have said it before. I did have a chat with him last night after I came home from Easter dinner to find him on his cell phone with his head buried in the covers in bed. He was talking quietly and had the door shut. I asked him if he had talked to any of his family members and he said no so I have to assume it was a female friend. I mean who else do you talk to on a holiday if it is not a good friend or family.
I asked him if he had someone else in his life and he said no. I then asked him if he wanted to have someone else in his life and he said "God No". I then asked him if he would tell me if he did and he said he would. I then told him that I felt that I was standing in the way of him being with someone else and he said that he didn't quite know how to answer that. I told him to answer it honestly and he said, "oh, I would, its just I don't really know what to say about it", whatever that means. I then dropped it.
My cousin who I spent the day with yesterday is a friend of his on FB. He doesn't realize I can see his FB page from work. He was very concerned WHY I was asking him about thinking there was someone else and I did not answer him. I think he assumed my cousin told me something which is further from the truth. Well, I hopped on FB from my iphone about 20 min after our conversation and he had changed his security settings so no-one but friends can see his wall. I called my cousin this morning to see if she could see his page and she informed me he had just deleted her as a friend! Yep, he is pretty much done.
I am going to have another talk with him tonight about where he stands with things, very close to the talk from RobX with some tweeks here and there.
You will all be happy to hear that I have found an attorney that I will be calling TODAY! I am starting to slowly but surely come to terms with things. Doesn't hurt any less but I am doing it. I will continue to love him unconditionally and be kind to him no matter how he treats me. Hopefully this will hit him later on in his life at some point.
