The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

Hi,

I did a stupid thing again. Something that only makes me feel bad. H and I went on a great 3 hour hike early yesterday morning. Then after, he mentioned that he wanted to go on a motorcycle ride. I said "that sounds like fun".

He actually dressed nicer than usual for a ride and was gone for about 3 hrs. ON EASTER. With our son home from college visiting.

This a.m. after he left, I checked the mileage on his motorcycle. He only went 31 miles. He told me he took a long ride through a canyon, blah blah blah. 31 miles is about there and back to where OW lives. I knew in my heart that is where he was going, and like a fool HAD to confirm it in my mind. Now I feel horrible. Again.

This has been going on for two plus years now. I don't know how much more I can take. I feel so disrespected and foolish. I am scared and not sure what to do! There are times when I see the H that married and we have a lot of fun together, and then there is THIS. And THIS is horrible.

Off to work...thanks for listening...