Another New Day 3

[islander]

I will country. And I don't even have any expectations. In the back of my mind, I am thinking. But I keep it at a minimum.

[islander]

I am going to be honest here.

I was secretly hoping that my W would just show up at our house tonight. Maybe with a bottle of wine a say that she just wanted to talk.

That is my fantasy though. It doesn't bother me that she didn't do that. I am not disappointed, bc I didn't have any expectations.

[~ kd ~]

I couldn't always rum 7 miles

I can rum 7 miles... but I prefer to rum sitting under an umbrella in Jamaica...

[islander]

Hey, I think my iPhone came with rum, and I am missing the letter 'n' most of the time.

[~ kd ~]

well... don't drink and iDrive... hahaha

[islander]

I woke up today and REALLY missed my W. So Much.

I went fishing with a friend and his W, and had a good time.

I started thinkig about my W though while I was with them, wishing she was there. Oh Well...

W sent me a tm and said "happy easter"

An hour later, I replied "happy easter XXX"

several hours later, W sent me a text:

W: How was your day?

M: good, yours?

W: it was ok, didn't do anything-about to go to the beach and run a bunch


I did not respond to her last text message.

I can't help but think that all of this contact she has had with me is anything but positive.

What else could it be???

I am being smart though, and letting her be.

If she knows what she wants, I can promise you she knows how to get it.

Please pray for me...I don't have expectations, but I know what I want..

I will be patient.

[ninelives]

Patience is all we have Islander. Let that Patience be coupled with really GAL and then you have graduated from DB 101.

If she comes back, that is a bonus if you still want her.

9

[islander]

I am really learning what it means to be patient. And I think to detach also.

You can't do either of those things unless you GAL.

Up to this point, I wasnt really trying to GAL. I would only do things reluctantly, then I would also talk about my sitch with the people that knew what was going on. I rarely talk about it any more, and when I do, it is a very short convo about something specific.

And 9, I do want my W to come back. Nothing has changed about that. Will there come a day when I don't? I really dont know the answer to that right now. But, I am not going to sit around and do nothing while I wait for the day to come, if it ever does.

[jbnati]

It sounds like you are getting some of those small positives, which is good. Keep the GAL going.

I can resemble your remark, however, about having the fantasy of where you just have a long talk someday and work things out.

[~ kd ~]

There ya go, Island! THAT's what we're talking about.

How similar it sounds to read those words, how I've been. I've made excuses regarding GAL. But it's all getting more... alluring. I'm excited to do some of the things I've been planning for the kids as well as just myself.

And the detaching part. That's exactly what I found. I detached... and my feelings for W haven't changed! I'm just accepting that if the opportunity ever presented itself and any issues left are taken care of. Well... I'd be open to the idea...

Good for you! Keep it going!