Recovering after a same sex affair - Part 4

[OnMyWay]

I know how you feel sparks. Having W around and in a good mood and real stir up the emotions after having been on the defensive for such a long time.

I feel like I've made such great progress at detaching, only to find myself wanting to escape when W is around for fear of loosing the grip on the progress I've made, as confusion/raw emotion stir when we spend "quality" time together. Good thing, I think, is that it feels like she's experiencing it also, even though I sense she doesn't want to let on about it. Plus, I've learned to expect her "next day" reaction, so I'm not disappointed when she comes at me guns a-blazin'.

All I can say is keep detaching. I think it is great you are going to counseling together. My W starts hers tomorrow and I have no idea whether or not I'll be invited in. Just have to wait and see.

All these sitchs are so similar, yet so different. If we could only figure out how to take the best of each one and build the ultimate DB program . . . It would be great to not have to guess at this so much and know the outcome was going to be positive, huh?