I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

Very good weekend. Friday out with friends to what's become my usual hangout. They have kind of become to "woe-is-me" CTH. One made a joke about me "not being lucky in love" I asked her what she meant.

If you line up the significant relationships in my life, they've all been beautiful. Most have been very smart and successful. All are generally nice people.

I just have to have patience. I'll find another.

Saturday, I took D8 to one of the Easter services at my church. D12 didn't want to come. She wanted time away from D8.

D8 was hilarious. She really, really got into the story of Jesus' final days. We ate dinner after and she said they taught this stuff in our other church (pre breakup), but it wasn't fun like they do it at this church.

She asked if Jesus really loves her even though she keeps trying to "kill" her sister.

I said yes, Jesus loves all sinners. The only one who never sinned was Jesus. Because of her ADHD, D8 thinks she's a bad kid.

When I dropped D8 off, D12 wanted to talk. D8 was running with the dog and fell and scraped up her knee. STBXW couldn't carry her inside because she hurt her back. I could say people generally tend to get back problems when they gain 30-40 pounds, but I won't.

So I carried D8 inside and she wanted me to stay a while so I was kind of stuck there for 30 minutes.

I felt a little different. I am still not comfortable being there since I put my heart and soul into the place and I've essentially been erased.

But I wasn't pining for STBXW to look my way either.

Made it out for a few hours after with another group of friends.

Easter alone. Not bad. I woke up and went for a run. Then I worked on a long overdue project while watching TV. Then I went to a coworker's house who was making a big Easter spread and ate firsts, seconds and thirds.

Then I went in to work. Since I didn't have anything special planned I told my boss I'd cover the Sunday shift.

I got to do a project on real estate prices and wow is it bad. I sampled 10 percent of the real estate transactions this year and only 14 of the 81 homes I looked up (we've had 798 homes sell in the first three months) were sold at a higher price than the previous transaction.

The "average" loss on a house in the first quarter of the year was $25,000 in a housing market where the average sale price has fallen to about $105,000.

I thought to myself, "good luck selling that house, STBXW."