Hi paper, thanks for dropping in. Yes it 's very hard, feels like the oxygen ripped out of your lungs. And not seeing my children everyday is the worst experience, people say i will get used to it, but who wants to get used to that.
Its the lying and denials that hurts so much, you really start to question your own sanity ( am I imagining this ) from someone who is normally completely honest. Im not going to snoop on her, thats too much, i know enough to know she is seeing someone.
Thankfully i found this site, it is helping me immeasurably to get my act together, but i still would like to validate what I am doing. She wants a divorce, but has done little to proceed with it. So I hold hope for us, but have to be very careful in how i proceed. I want to go in hard, but have been kind, considerate and gentle instead, which only seems to make her disrespect me. So i feel she needs a firmer response.
Thanks
Facingdivorce Me: 46 W: 40 D8 D6 Seperated feb 2011