Very sorry for your loss. I know it is almost as if your partner cannot stand for your attention to be elsewhere for even a moment. ( My 23 yo D is Bipolar ) As Seeking said, things are pretty quiet on the weekends here.
First, take it easy with the meds. I've worked with Docs for 20+ years, and I know you want something to take away the pain. The meds will only dull it, and dull your mind, as well. BE CAREFUL.
I applaud your decision to "go dark"( our term for no contact )but use it as a healing time for yourself, not as a punishment to your H. If possible, detach from you H and his problems and work on your grief over the loss of your mother. That is grief enough for any one person at a time.
Kee, I lost my mother when I was 14, and I know the pain. I also know that the feeling of loss never goes away. I do not know your beliefs, but I take solace in the belief that my mother is always there to watch over me in my darkest hours. Sometimes, when I am very, very quiet, I can feel my mother near me. I know right now that you are too lost in grief for this type of moment, but hang onto that thought as something to use in the future.
((HUGS))
ME: 54 Him: 51 M: 20 years T: 21 years OW/New wife: 36 Sons & Daughters: 7 (ages 24-36) Bomb: March 4, 2010 He Filed: April 28, 2010 I Contested: May 1, 2010 Standing Down: 11/24/10 Divorced : 05/04/2011
