Well we had the R talk weds she said that she built a wall around herself to protect from feeling hurt(all my fault).She said lets clarify things and told me you know why im doing this, I said not really. It was all my fault blah blah blah. No account ability I lisened and told her that I validate her feelings and that Love was a decision not a transient rush she didnt believe that. I also told her that I will support her journey of personal dicovery and that I thought it was good. She says what does it matter at this point if I text a guy or sleep with a guy it was her choice right?! i told her that would feel hurt if she did that and she says she understands. Dont know what this means to a W who wears panty liners after I had found seamen in her panties. At this point I have been somewhat aloof (grey) and have said nothing today after she had gone to bar to celebrate her last class in her masters yet she came home at 8:30 and had brought me a gift of a new lunch box????
I think I have seen some baby steps.... maybe?. i pray to god to make me a stronger person and to save pur family from destruction. Have grown a strip of hair down my chin and dyed it as well as let my hair grow longer and got some compliments last night in town,"you look alot younger" got hit on too. have dropped 30 lbs and started to work out which my body responds VERY quickly!
Dont know where she is now in her MLC head but I feel better everyday less crying.we had some friend time last night and were able to laugh and talk about mundane things.
W and I are going to church for easter as a whole family her suggestion should prove to be interesting. her suggestion to invite my dad over as well as my brother so we will see..
