I was not expecting to feel this despondent about the situation going into week 7, especially after I thought I had been doing pretty well up until now. W seems to be very happy about everything. There has been no talk of anything serious, but her pleasant demeanor is putting me down, and it feels like she has the upper hand.
I had planned to have Easter dinner out with my D and S and told this to W a few days ago. That seemed to bother her, so I backslid and suggested the 4 of us have dinner together at our house. That blew up in my face. D and S are annoyed that I caved in to her, and W is annoyed that she will have to put some effort into this. Should have stayed with plan A.
Temporarily reactivated my FB account at the request of a friend to look at his page. I saw W had "liked" a page called "It's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen ,but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want." Didn't take a genius to figure out what that was referring to.
Just received DB; hopefully it will give me the steps I need to crawl up out of the muck.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
