I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

I don't plan on going to court. STBXW will have to to assure the judge this is what she wants.

My L had everything all typed up by last night. I noticed a couple small things that'll need to be changed. Still, I emailed them off to STBXW this morning for her to look and suggest changes.

This time she gets D related stuff in time for the weekend. She's the ice queen though. I'm not sure she'll care.

Went out last night for a couple of hours. Met up with the friend from STBXW's high school that I met first. Basically, I became friends with her. She introduced me to her friends, then I met their friends. STBXW was in that third group.

Now that it's over, the friend last night said she wanted badly to tell me I was making a mistake 15 years ago when we were getting married. She said she could tell I was past listening, but she didn't think the M would last because STBXW just isn't all there.

Weird how the feelings shift from day to day. Yesterday, I felt like a failure. Today, I feel like I really had no chance -- deep down, STBXW just isn't capable of loving another in the way you have to to stay married. Tomorrow, it'll be another feeling.