OnMyWay: to who knows where?

[OnMyWay]

Today's update, but first, I'd like to take the opportunity for some shameless gloating!

I thought of this after a discussion over on DelinquentGirls thread about personal theme songs and I noted my was Cee Lo Green's unclean version of "Forget You." I was driving with D today and she started telling me how much W hates this song as she says it's overplayed on the radio. W was the one last year that introduced the song to me and she had really liked it back then. I listen to the same stations, and I hardly ever hear it, but she knows I like it and D sings along with it doing the "ooh ooh ooooh" parts. I think WAW doesn't like it because it has new meaning to her and I find that very pleasurable! http://youtu.be/bKxodgpyGec

Ok, that's enough gloating for tonight.

I'm kind of done with W being around for now. She came over after class today and our time overlapped a bit. She usually doesn't show up until right before I have to leave for work. During the overlap, D and I played around a lot. W just sat there watching. Then, D tells me about how one of her friends mom's (who I think is HOT) has changed her hair color. "You think she's pretty, DAAaad!" "Yeah D, well why don't you set me up?!" We giggled. All this in front of W. W said D can set me up when she's not around. (ok, now I done gloating, really.)

Have I mentioned how much I love my D? She really surprises me sometimes. It was all good until I got up to leave and she freaked out, not wanting me to go. Practically dragged her out the door trying to get to the car. She was adamant, but work is work and I had to go. I left her crying in the driveway as I drove away. I know she was just being overly dramatic, but still, I love that kid.

Later W called, as it looks like my sitter for tomorrow is going to fall through. She provided pleasant solutions and offered to take D for half day, etc., and offered to bring her home after school and will leave when I get there. Friday night and she'll obviously go out partying with her friends - one of the major issues in our M. However, due to my detachment, it started to bother me initially, but then just went away. I still have work to do on the detachment side of things, but I surprised how quickly I recovered. It's a solid 180 success for me.

Next, she started planning a big Easter family day on Saturday and asked if I was still interested in participating. I'm not really, but for the purposes of spending quality time with D and some experimental DBing, I'm all in. She knows I have a roast in the freezer and she's pulling it out to thaw so I can make my famous horseradish & herb encrusted roast. Hmmm, she's still nesting. I guess that positive, but I'm ready for some space. There's no R talk (actually there's hardly any talk) between us and she just seems to be in some sort of weird observation mode.

Makes me ask a question to the group: Has any of the LBS here discovered they, during the process, end up being a WAS themselves? I can definitely see changes in the dynamics of our R here. While she has left me, she has not detached and things like the HOT other mother still bother her. It is obvious to me, while she is the instigator, I am the one here whose done the work and I've moved along much farther then she has. I'm nearly detached from her and any outcome of our failed M. If she is edging towards reconciling, I'm no longer in a position to offer that at this point in time - I'm sure this is way to premature for consideration, but the "clues" are meaning something and with her nesting back in our home, it seems to me she's looking at her options.

I did notice in her calendar (we share google calendars as it helps with scheduling while minimizing potential discussion conflicts) that she is being evaluated by a psychologist on Monday prior to starting her IC next week. It'll be interesting to see how that impacts all this.