Had a brutal day at work. My back is still all screwed up, and of course I spent most of my shift on my feet so that didn't help. W had a busy day as well, but got several texts from her checking up on me to see how I was feeling. Was so busy and stressed out by the end of the day that I was absolutely dreading coming home to an empty house.
Got a late text from W saying she was sorry but she was exhausted and was going to go to bed. I asked her to call anyway for a minute...what can I say, I just really wanted to hear her voice. We talked for about 5 minutes, and I told her about all the stress of the day. She was really very sweet about it, and I told her that driving home knowing she wasn't going to be there was just hard. She said "H, I know, I'm so sorry", but very quietly.
Man I wish she was here. Feelin really down tonight. No idea how I'm going to make it another 3 weeks like this. And I feel like I shouldn't even get my hopes up for then either in case she decides she isn't ready to come back and try to work on us.
Probably backslid a bit tonight, but it's hard to hide my feelings from her when I'm hurting this bad.
BITS M: 35 W: 27 T 7.5 years M 5 years No kids My EA: 3/08 Her EA: 1/11, discovered 3/11 (ongoing?) ILYBINILY, D mentioned 3/8/11 W at parents house: 4/16/11
