Not gonna bust your chops anymore about the eye contact thing.
I get it.
It's something for you to work on though. Maybe find a quiet place and take a look at it from an outside perspective. No judgements, maybe just try to ponder why, and accept it for what it is right now. I can understand the whole faltering thing. All this tends to give our confidence and or self esteem a hit.
I'm not going to argue the fact that you should or shouldn't feel that way, hell I remember those days all too well. Just don't own anything that isn't yours. You should hold your head high and be proud of who you are and what you believe in. Don't ever let anyone rob you of that.
You're going to be great no matter how this all plays out. Believe that, say it out loud. Be easy on yourself, you have enough pressure as it is.
