Yeah..I really went dark. I knew I couldn't handle all the emotions at the time any other way but to let go of him and the mess 100%. Didn't mean I didn't/don't think about him a little each and everyday (and still do)...but I finally got to the place that I realized I had to hand it over to Him and deal with life as it was/is presently, and let H go on with the life he wanted. With kids (young or adult shared) that can be hard, but I've been real good at not asking for information or not reacting if some small bit of info made it's way to my ears. And for me, that was a major accomplishment! LOL
Now I'm going to tarnish my halo a little. While speaking, I couldn't help but notice that Father Time has been working on XH too.....not just me! Wrinkles, pudginess has not escaped XH, along with a receding hairline. LOL My innerself still sees him as very attractive, but my vain self was tickled to see that no one escapes the consequences of several years without some type of physical change.
So today, I can look in my mirror and say "Not so bad after all, considering....." *snicker*
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible
