thank you country_song it is encouraging just to know someone is out there who cares enough to offer encouragement, as riight now i feel so alone, i havent told anyone and trying to stay upbeat is hard, i haven't been able to smile in days and colleague even told me the funniest story i have heard in years about her dog catching her off guard and pulling her through the wet grass at high speed like something you would see in a sitcom :0) but still as funny as i found it i cannot smile or laugh.
you're right i need to find a happy place somewhere to escape too and breathe as at the moment i am just exsisting
sat in the kiddie park at 7:30 this morning it was freezing but just couldnt go home (i was at the gym at 6) so listened to music on the swings
jjust feel so overwhelmed but i'm tring to stay upbeat :0)
