Journal Ok so there was a negativity rebound of sorts today. She said she had a lot of things to get done today, and she did. As I got out of work she told me she was going to run some errands near my job, whenever she does and I'm free I usually join her. So I asked if she wanted to do the same, to which she replied at first to go ahead and go home, but then quickly changed her mind and said to go ahead and join her. Well I could tell there were definitely minefields out today. She would say things, that might have led to a meltdown, but I tried my best to diffuse each and every situation with a joke, a smile, and positive thoughts and it worked. We came back home ate dinner, watched some TV. I stepped out to the bathroom and when I came out I noticed she was dressed to go out. (Do more errands) I was wondering whether she wanted me to go or not, but then said something along the lines of "you have your keys?" Which to me told me that yes she wanted to go. Dodged a couple of more potential sticky situations with a positive attitude and humor. She has been watching what she eats again (as if she needs to being a double zero) and gets annoyed easily when doing so. Then she falls asleep on the couch. I sit next to her, watch TV, she wakes up we talk a little I lay my head facing hers close to her. She then after a few seconds says, it makes her uncomfortable "to have you stare at me this close." I try to joke it off again, we both laugh. I keep watching TV she falls asleep again (BTW the couch has been her bed for about a month, still won't come back) Wakes up somehow we start a playfight lightly hitting each other and laughing, then I notice she gets a little more violent with some scratching. Yet we are still playing. We stop, then she sighs... I ask what's wrong, doesn't want to say at first but then says. I was hoping you'd get the hint that I was tired of you for today. I was actually trying to let you know that earlier. I got up and said oh sorry, well don't worry about I'm just going to go read in the master bedroom, and took off. She went back to sleep. Sleep crankiness? most likely. What bothered me was that she "tried to let me know that she was starting to get tired of being with me earlier today" and I completely missed it. I mean how was I supposed to know?! Luckily there was no anger on either side, and I tried to express that there was no problem with the space, and smiled as I left. Hopefully this will reinforce the notion that she needs to communicate these things with words, not cryptic actions.
I have no problem giving her some space, just don't expect me to pick up on it, through indirect actions.
Awkward day, but no one lost their temper. Let's call it neutral for now.
