Had no idea I hadn't been back to my own thread in years! Lurk and post to others once in awhile, but..... But yes, I'm still around and kicking.
Let's see, the last time I had any type of conversation with XH was before the divorce in 06, and that would have only been a strained discussion of legalities that needed to be worked out (or not). Soooo...lets safely say that it's been 6-7 years since a real conversation....and definitely not a single word since 06. That ended today.
Won't get into details, but there was a smidgeon of a type of contact last week, which blew me away, but no direct contact. Just had thought it VERY strange that he'd try to contact me at all, especially when the reason for it could have been handled by third parties.
I'm at work today, I turn around...and BAMMMM...there he is trying to get my attention. I walk over to an area (thinking in my head 'what the hell is going on'..feeling my face turning several shades of red. And friends....I was splendid. I handled the whole thing soooooo good. I visited, I smiled, I laughed, I made little jokes. We basically had a really nice little min. conversation about inconsequential things. He asked how I was, etc. I mentioned some of the accomplishments (dreams) he's been able to reach since the divorce. It was just a really nice friendly conversaation between two people. It just ended with us saying it was nice to talk. No nothing special. I can tell you, that I certainly praised the Lord after. I always wanted to know if I could handle speaking to him again, looking him in the eyes again. And, low and behold I could. Sure, I still felt that pull...but I also felt a different feeling. A feeling of confidence in myself. I felt no shame, just pride in what I have been able to accomplish, what I've learned about myself, etc. through the years since we connected at all.
Why this slight contact last week, and now this full blown contact today...I don't know. There's nothing he can be trying to lead me into...no deal that he can try to sneak himself out of. No reason I can think of, other than maybe just curiousity, or sneaking a peek out of the cloud of fog.
Whatever the reason, I felt a little lighter the rest of the day. I had reached a milestone that I didn't know if I would reach or not...and I survived it. I'm so glad that so many of the negative emotions I've been able to work through over the past several years. I actually enjoyed 'joshing' around a little with him today. We still seem to share the same type of humor we had years ago. I'm telling no family about this. I don't want anything blown out of proportion, or someone trying to make something out of this that it isn't, or to get words of warning. But it was an answer to many prayers over the years. I know he planned this meeting, I know he tried to make sure I would step aside and speak with him. We didn't just accidentally happen to bump into each other.
Honestly, I can say I wasn't sure this day would ever come. But it did, and it was handled very well by both of us, and I'm eternally thankful for that.
Just thought I'd share a praise report and a positive ending to several years of no contact.
Best wishes to all and a blessed Easter weekend. To all those in the storm stricken areas, my prayers are with you.
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible
