Yeah, I do not post very often. I guess when there are long periods of NC, which I have been advised to implement, there is not much to say about the matter. Time goes by, she doesn't call me and I don't call her. I guess I don't see the point of posting "Another day, week, month has passed and she hasn't come back." I find the whole concept depressing and a bit whiney.
But, when I ask for it, I truly want some useful advice. Especially when time has nearly run out. A year hasn't made her miss me enough to come back.
I have seen her four times since she left 13 months ago, all for picking up things or discussing household business. We have communicated by email or phone maybe a little more than that. When she does see me, she is engaging and wants to know how work is, how relatives are, etc.
Again, I came here to bust my divorce. Not to learn to be single again or polish myself up for the next wife. Or to have someone pat my on the back everytime I do something for myself. I see the purpose of NC, but at this point NC is not working.
I know this post probably seems hostile and I know everyone is here to help or get help. But, I'm frustrated that I am exactly where I was a year ago, only with divorce much closer. Reading Divorce Remedy gave me hope. If I hadn't held on to that hope, I may have been ready to file myself at this point.
