I'm feeling so much better about myself lately. I have finally gotten to the point that while I want to save my M and I'm working towards doing that...it is NOT the most important thing right now. The most important thing right now is ME. I'm learning to love myself...to look in the mirror and be GREAT with what I see. It has really been a novel experience for me. Cause I'm not just talking about liking the physical aspects of me, but other things as well. I see a light in my eyes and a healthy glow to my skin that has not been there in YEARS!!! I am truly enjoying my journey to self love and happiness and I hope that my D will learn that you can truly be happy if you are happier with yourself.

She is still having a difficult time, but I hope that if I give her a listening ear and lead by example, that we will get through this alot more quickly than the experts say it will take. However, if we don't, then I will just continue to be there and support her while slowly helping her to let go of her angry and sadness.

Ya know...I was thinking today that it would be sooo much easier if I couldn't stand my H!!! It is so frustrating as he is my BEST FRIEND and has been my best friend for over half of my life. It's very hard to detach when the friendship is still alive...ya know? Does anyone else have this issue? If so...how do you handle that?

I hope ya'll have had a Great Day!


Me: 31
H: 30
Kids: D9
Together almost 12 years
Married almost 5 years
EA began: 8/10
Separated: 3/11