What is coming is going to be very hard. When they live with you it is easier in a way. You get frustrated much easier and you learn to accept the fact that they are leaving. Sometimes you almost wish it so that the rollercoaster stops. You are mad one minute and sad the next. You say things like “good. Go have fun and see how much it is out there without me” Mostly in your head.
Then they leave.
Now comes a different set of emotions all together. Denial is one. Anger. Frustration. Just to name a few. It is important at this point that you start to reflect and do yourself growth. You having nothing in the way at this point, take the time and do the work. You have come a long way from where you started.
In the army we do force marches sometimes 12miles sometimes 24 miles. At some point after 10 miles it does not matter how far you have to go because you can’t feel your shoulders your back your feet are bleeding and it is the easiest time to stop moving and just get on the truck. The worse part of these marches is not how long they are, it is knowing you can stop walking at anytime and get on the truck or the bus that’s trailing you. It is in mile 10 that you start to find yourself. This is where your mettle is tested and your grit starts to pull through. Whenever everything in your being is telling you to stop and you take one more step, then another then another. Don’t get me wrong the entire thing s%$ks but You are now in mile 10 heading towards mile 24. Empty house is no house at all. You have the right idea on how to proceed. The implementation is a little harder to do but stay the course and be strong. You know where to find me if you need to talk.
Hate to say it but I know how you feel cause I have been there.
