I'd been advised that I needed to keep a journal of "life with W" (for potential legal reasons) which is part of the reason for all the detail I'd been posting here. I'd suspect that's a huge part of my problem with controlling and analyzing. I won't post as much detail any more. Just significant points as might be necessary from now on.
An FYI as to why I dropped the rope today: In the (recent) past emails, W's WORDS said that I'm now a good dad and the most recent email that I didn't post was I'm a good person. But in same email, followed that with "but just not a good husband (she says with humour)."
