Irma, you have always told me that I am very blunt, and I am going to be again. He can give you any answer he wants to, the bottom line is he didn't want to be married to you and have the responsibilities of being a parent. This is the same reason most of us end up here. Everyone can believe whatever B.S. they want to, but that's the bottom line. I know you wanted to make this work, I think a big reason you wanted to is to make up for some mistakes you made when you were younger, but I feel your commitment to God and your efforts in trying to save your marriage have wiped your slate clean. I think that is what you need to focus on now, a clean slate with everything. Put this behind you and move forward. To stand at this point is useless. I know you leave things in God's hands, as you should, but you know in your heart that its over. I don't mean that you should now run out and find the first man you can find, but mover forward with your life without him. You still have a lot to do, you will still have to parent, because in spite of all his B.S. he won't be there, he will do what he wants. Don't worry about what he is doing or if he's happy or not, work on making yourself happy.
