Take The Long Way Home...

[FellOnBlackDays]

Scy and Country,
Thanks for the kind words. You don't know how much they mean to me.

Country, yes, you do need to realize that the WAS doesn't really realize what they are doing. They think they are "escaping" from some imaginary prison they have created in their mind. What they don't realize is that once they get outside of the gate, nothing will happen. This isn't the Shawshank Redemption, my love. There will be no sirens, no guards chasing after them with bloodhounds, nothing. They will escape, stand in the middle of the street and shout, "I am out" as they raise their arms in victory. But, no one will care. Those passing by will simply look over, say "Who gives a sh*t, get out of my way as I have my own problems" and keep walking. They will be left standing there in the middle of the street looking like a fool with no where to go. This isn't a graduation or a promotion. No one is going to shower them with cards and congratulations. The victory for a WAS is very hollow, at best. If anything, she will become the person at the office that others whisper, "You know she left her husband" as she passes by. There will be no parade, no ticker tape, no band. That is when they realize they are DIVORCED!!! In a couple of weeks or a couple of months, my ex-wife is going to wake up one morning in her 500 sq ft apartment next to the ghetto and realize she is waking up alone for the 300th or so time. She will go to work, come home, eat a TV dinner for one and suddenly ask herself, "What have I done?" Will I be waiting there when that happens? I don't know. Only time will tell. But until then, I will have to move forward because the clock governing my time on this earth will not stop while she tries to figure out what she wants.

As for my plan, well, it is early. For now, I plan to just find the strength to get through the D and go to work each day. I do plan on buying myself a few things I have always wanted. I am going to travel to New York City for the first time ever in May. And, I plan on getting certified for sky diving this summer. That is about as much as I know right now. But, I am sure more will come to me as the time passes. I also need to buy some new furniture to replace what was lost. Who knows what the future holds...

BITS never walk alone!

FOBD