That is the big question isn't it. I don't know what I want to do. I have been "acting as if" for about 8 weeks now and he seems to be getting angrier and angrier, almost like I make his skin crawl when I am around. I guess it could be that I am standing in the way of his freedom although he has always been free to leave. I am contemplating a 180 and doing a combination of going dark and GAL but I am afraid that will drive us even further apart. I am at least trying to keep some sort of connection with him. At the very least I am buying time I suppose by making him feel a bit guilty by my "niceness". I don't want things based on guilt, but just want to slow down the process a little to make sure he isn't leaping to divorce too quickly.
