confused bolt

[Bolt]

I guess the not looking her in the eyes was for my own self-preservation. I'm fine if I don't talk to her and especially if I don't see her. It's when I do, I falter.

I didn't mean it as disrespectful but right now I just can't do it. I'm a little weaker in that area.

I know it's way too early but at what point do you realize that it isn't just a manipulation? that it is something more?

I'm not falling for anything but I can't help not having hope when stuff like this happens. The thing I try to do is cut it off so it doesn't go long enough to give hope.